1st of august

pass so many days,but stil so hard to forget her..uh shes like a needle in my heart..hurt and stil wil miss it way alot..i miss the time we spend..miss the sweet moment we had..shes crueal to me nw..all i wana ask her is.."u reali can forget the time we had? The time we spend together"?
U knw the best,i love u more den anything..he onli wil treasure u when he almost lost u..i reali hope u wil read all these..

August 24

Its like long ago since i last update,well its aredi the end of story between me and her,now im starting a new life i guess,its bored to hold back becoz of her,i got alot of advice,i hope i will find anothers..

5th of august

Its like a week since i write any new stuff,bah lot of things happen..i stop working on tat old place tat i do,feel totaly fcuked out with her,my heart dies out 70%,since she can hurt me juz to maintain the relationship for herself,why shld i fking care so much,well in tis triangle love,i hurt the most.

If she had to choose to keep 1 and let the another 1 hurt,i will be the sacrifice,well nw i dnt reali care alot..juz goin bak and be myself..if i could let it go..1 day,i will for sure..notice tis blog become my lil diary,well gotta go..

29th of july

It has bein few days since i went blogging..lots of stuff happen..frm bad to good,frm bad to worst and lots more,well feel shock when i knw the top shop of the 1 im working for its closing down,well i'll be jobless at 1st of august,i dont reali care abt the job coz it sucks..all i care is all abt her..told her the news on 27th of july nite time,tats after wad i heard frm my bro..

28th wil be my unforgetable day every..i had my 1st hug with her.. She gimme the 1st kiss,we had a long chat..y do gals like last mins.
She told me how she feel..i was happy,touch..tis jobless thing is bring me closer to her..so,i'll update more after i get my comp bak..so goin off for nw..

26th of july

Bein thinking alot lately..after my pc broke down,i gt more time to tink abt it..so far on the relationship im havin wif her.. I started to notice..nw its like..

100% effort, 50% pay off.
I juz wana be wif her..oh and i notice sumthing else..as long as shes stil wif him..i wnt have even 50% of my happinest..she said his a jerk,and how bad he was,but so wad..and the idea is she stil dint break wif him..so those jerk stuff was all meaningless... She said giving him last chance.. I tink i heard she said tat at least 3 time..end up its 3 years relationship is hard to let go..

Well,to be continue..have to work now.

25th of july

Everythin dnt start out the way i wanted..all i can said is..

If you reali love me,you wnt let me suffer and feel such pain.

24th of july

well,its 24th of july,its the 51 day since i knw her,around 35-40 days since im in this complicate relationship with her..

Today she shld be workin..but last night around 1am,she asked me to call her.. So i did..guess wat? Her bf ask her nt to work to accompany him..she asked me,do i wan her to work?

As always,im a dumbass tat trying to be good told her to accompany her bf..the truth is..my heart hurts..i wana see her so much,coz i juz got bak frm genting..its like 3 days since i last saw her..i miss her so much..althought i call her with 3G,yet im nt much satisfy..so hoping to see her as soon as possible..yet end up i told her to go look for her bf..i hate myself nw..i cant be honest to myself nomore..but..i love her..and wanted her to feel happy..since she cant let go and accept me,so i'll juz be her back support..

At morning..around 10am..i woke up and she msg me..she said she drove me to work..and i agree..so got everythin done at 11. She reach my place at 11.45..and i was quiet on the way..my heart still feel the pain..so reach there..i stil haven go to work..and we had some time to chat..she knws im sad..yet still,i gave her the things i bought at genting. A necklace (hearted shaped),a pair of earring (black coloured ribbon shape),and a couple keychain (heart with an arrow remove-able shape).

I planning giv the couple thing to her and her bf at the veri last min..yet she said nvm..so after the gift..we chat awhile.. I hold her hand..and give her a kiss on the lips..althought it was the 2nd kiss i gave her..but the feeling is stil special..after tat..she kiss my hand..well to be honest.. I duno wat relationship are we in..so i'll stop here for nw..

P.s : sry for bad english,was blogging with my phone during work time..